To my sweet little ones

 I thought having a plan would allow me enough time to get my to-do list checked off, enough minutes spent with Bennett and enough hours of sleep before the arrival of our sweet baby girl, but the truth is there are still things on my never ending list, there are never enough minutes spent with Bennett and sleep? Well we all know how that is in your last month of pregnancy, nonexistent.   So many times throughout this pregnancy I have been asked if I'm "so excited" about becoming a mom for the second time. Sometimes I've answered with yes other times I express my worries, but I want to

clear the air that I feel truly honored blessed that Heavenly Father has enough trust in me to grant me with another one of his precious heavenly spirits. After having a fairly easy pregnancy end with the shocking news that my induction would take place at 37 weeks instead of 39 and a scary trip to labor and delivery at 3 am, I am grateful to my Heavenly Father for blessing me with health and blessing this little girl with health to continue growing. I am also grateful, yet absolutely terrified that this is my LAST day pregnant. she's so easy to care for, feed, and nuture while she is on the inside, but the clock is ticking and while I have endured the last (essentially) 2 years of pregnancy, I'm done! 

Dearest Bennett- I hope you know how much I love you. How much your father loves you and how much your family loves you. Your fiery personality makes us all giggle daily. Your never ending dancing and bobbing when a song comes on you like or a food you love enters your mouth. How you sprout your teeth in groups  instead of one at a time. You walk all over our house and roll onto the dogs to show them how much you love to cuddle them. How you wake up happy saying hi and allow us to sleep through the night. How much you love to splash in the bath and eat ice. All of these new skills you've learned and developed make your father as I so proud to be able to call you out son. You are such a good sharer and I hope you continue to be with your baby sister. I hope that you show her how to love, how to laugh, and how to be a good person because you are truly a wonderful person. I am so so sad to have to share myself between you and another, but I hope and pray that you love your sister and protect her. I love you Bennett boy. You will always be the boy who stole my heart. 

Dearest Jillian- How excited I am to get to hold and snuggle and love on you tomorrow. How excited I am to have a mini me a little girl I can dress up as my twin, teach to be a strong woman of great worth and watch melt her daddy's heart. I am excited for you to have such an amazing brother. I'm sure you will love him and be like I was with my brother constantly trying to follow his footsteps. I pray that you are big and your lungs are strong and that we can avoid any NICU visits. You are one lucky girl to have Bennett as your brother and such a huge family so excited for your arrival. Here's to tomorrow, your birthday. Love you already and excited to love you even more once your officially here.